Monday, August 25, 2008
{ 9:10 PM }
Specially for:
Jermyn HanOkay,
where to begin?
070808,
the day we begun.
you trusted me,
right?
I was serious!
to tell you the truth..
I've been wanting
to be
with you since
the start of this year.
but,
me making the first move?
I was afraid.
&its awkward,
don't you think?
people would be wondering:
" eeyer, this girl..
no shame one.
ask boys for stead "
its nothing new for me
to ask..
but I didn't really want
to get into a relationship
during that moment.
so I decided,
let time take its course.
so I left my heart
to be.
then during 070808,
the day we had oral..
you were playing with the
heart shape thingy.
when I requested if I could have it,
you gave it.
I was
touched.in a way.
even when you sang
Fall For You behind me..
it felt like
I was being serenaded by you.
then I told Iman,
I want to try something.
which was to ask you to be mine.
&I was worried.
what if you rejected?
so,
I wrote:
" just kidding "
at the back.
fortunately&
surprisingly..
you accepted me.
I was truly stunned.
&I wanted to confirm with you
desperately.
&you really accepted me.
my heart melted.
then,
you mentioned that
you didn't want anyone to know.
so I decided,
okay..
I'll keep a low profile of it.
but the next day,
we got raided
by people
with the queery:
" are we an item? "
I kept my mouth shut.
&days pass.
they still ask me.
upon hearing them saying
that you told them
that you are my boyf.
I actually told the
storyclaiming it was a joke
to begin.
so that it would still be kept
low profile.
&no one would know about us.
but then I wonder,
why are you not talking to me?
finally today,
it struck me.
so,
I asked you that question.
with an intention
to salvage our relationship
in mind.
Baby,
I'm sorry that you
got laughed at.
I truly am.
let me make it up to you.
please.I love you.
