Thursday, December 18, 2008
{ 10:48 AM }
okay, so like.. I woke up with a shock :) hah. I thought I was late for dance -.=" today's training starts at 12noon. so, when I woke up, look at the time&God was I relieve! :) so, went to start up the computer first x) then headed to the bathroom. showered for half an hour. then Mum asked what time I end today. blahs. then I started to do my usual
thang on the computer. friendster here&there. replied tags&such :D oh&I was looking for someone's friendster. nah, its not my crush. someone else :) whom can be said I'm quite fond of but I force myself not to fall for him. yeaa.. something like that. hahas. okay, so I ate a necterine&cooked up scambled eggs with cheese for breakfast :) woohoo! hahas. wasn't quite successful -.=" but heck, it still taste
great! :D well, obviously it does since I was the one who cooked it up :P bwahahas! damn, recently I've been very thickskinned xD aights.. what more should I talk about? huhs? /:
I'm out of words O:
let me try something.. depressing/emotional? xD
sometimes, I'd look at her&wonder what about me that makes me so unbeautiful. then I'd look at you, &wonder what makes me so fond of you. I suppose, nothing. you just make my heart melt. probably cause you're hot.
no doubt bout it. that's why I'm telling myself, I'm not going to chase after you. because my purpose is not to love someone for his looks, but for his heart. then again, at the same time, I don't want people to think wrongly about me. someone told me that people has "high expectations" on me. they expected my boyfs to be someone good looking&all. a few of them were. some weren't, I admit. but to me, they all looked the same. their hearts is what that varies. &I told her, that looks aren't everything to me. she says that she knows. she knows that I'm not the sort that goes after looks. &I told her that to go after someone with looks, you need to have it yourself. &she said that that's the whole point. she's indirectly saying that I do have the looks! so, from now on, I'll stop looking at his girlf's picture&tell myself that I'm beautiful in my own ways. that's what I'm gonna do. it's time for a new change. I need the confidence to keep me strong.okay, that was more to vainity than emotional wasn't it? -.=" LOL. I figured something ironic(?), I'm already vain, so why try to be more vain? x.x LOL. okay, I suppose I'm vain in a different way :) I tend to look at the mirror all the time because I keep thinking that I look ridiculous or ugly :) so I tend to check myself on the mirror for any flaws. yeps, that's all :D
off to school now!
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